I just feel like I’m getting sucked further and further into the system, becoming one more cog, perpetuating the debt, income, consume, scheme. And it’s sucking away all my passion and breaking down bits of the soul.
I hear you. Over the last few years I’ve been figuring out where I can compromise my principles (because, let’s face it, I have to pay my bills) without compromising my core being. I’ve reached the point where I think we have to forgive ourselves the fact that we are within a total system, & cannot not be defined by it to at least some extent. We should forgive ourselves the daily compromises we must make to survive in this system*, & focus on building a clarity of purpose within.
As long as we remain conscious of the system & hold onto that clarity of purpose within ourselves then we can at least remain ethical** in how we treat other people, & we will always look for and use opportunities to change the system for the better. Even if it’s just by being nice to others, creating art (whether for alleys or galleries), music or growing food, we caneach make the word a little better.
The burdens of the system are used to keep us quiet; drained by worry for tomorrow we distract ourselves with today’s entertainment. The most important resistance any of us can achieve is to know ourselves, know a better way is possible & to - despite the present reality - work towards that.
I don’t know if it helps anyone else, but every-time I start to feel lost, I remember a quote from Daniel Libeskind: he says that all architects are intrinsically optimists, because “[architecture is] that complete ecstasy that the future can be better.” Optimism isn’t rose coloured glasses, it’s seeing the problems & looking for solutions & little by little building them up - because we can do better than this.
*Taking that shitty job with the corporate, using plastic bags, not buying organic GE free, using a car, voting for the representative we least dislike because letting the other get in is unthinkable, joining a business networking group, etc…
**Not the same as principled; you know: ‘not every rectangle is a square’…